THIS IS NOT A BLOG!
So, uhm where do I start? Life has been pure chaos lately. I haven’t had a moment to catch my breath and I’m on the edge of a full-blown mental break down. I don’t even know where to start or how much I want to share in this blog that isn’t really a blog. It’s more like a notice. I’m just going to jump straight to the nitty bitty business because I don’t have it in me to stretch it out.
I’ve had health problems this last two weeks. I’ve been so sick and I’m just not getting better. I’m seeing the doctor tomorrow. It comes and goes. I have a few moments where I feel like myself and I’m able to get some work done but I’ve had to prioritize what I choose to focus on in the rare moments I feel better. I’ve been working on something super big since February and I’m so close to being done. I need to finish it soon. For my own sanity really. I’ve written some blogs but they’re just not turning out well. They’re trash and I refuse to post shitty blogs just for the sake to have a blog go online. I pride myself in creating quality blogs and I refuse to give that up. I don’t want to miss blogs but I know you all will understand. I will make it up to you all once I’m finally healthy.
The other big factor is my father’s health. I’m not sure if I should share this as it’s not my story to tell but as my father has gone public with it, I can comfortably briefly mention it. My father is undergoing enormous surgery today. He is losing his one foot. Just between his ankle and knee. It’s big news. I’m a pure nervous wreck and my stomach hurts at the thought of my dad being on the other side of the world. I can’t do anything and it hurts. I want to be there for him. I want to help take care of him after the surgery. I want to be his support but I can’t.
I don’t have the energy to really talk about all of this. I’m emotionally, mentally and physically drained. I need a break from bad things happening in my life. Truly. But anyway…let’s talk about the upcoming activity on my website/blog.
My health and the quality of blogs I choose to share is important to me. Until I’ve recovered and I’m able to create content I’m proud of, there won’t be that many blogs going live on my website. I will try my best to line everything out so you know when to expect a blog. I’m only going to stray from my usual update schedule for a maximum of two weeks. The last two parts of my infertility journey will be going up the next two Wednesdays. I have another blog going up on Friday. I’ve been working on it for a month and I just need to wait until Wednesday to collect the last bit of data. A review is supposed to go up next week Monday but as I’ve been so sick for such a long period of time, I haven’t had the time to review anything. Originally I planned to review a restaurant but my taste buds have been pretty shitty lately so I couldn’t review it fairly. I also couldn’t stomach the thought of the food so we decided not to go. That’s about it. Basically, three blogs will go up in the next two weeks.
- 15 May – Infertility blog part 4
- 17 May – new blog
- 22 May – Infertility blog part 5
My update schedule should be back to normal by the 27th of May. It can be sooner but I doubt it will be much later. I’m so sorry. I really wanted to push through and follow my plan for my blog to the T but life doesn’t always allow everything to go according to plan…I hope you will understand.
Thank you so much for reading and I will see you in a click!
PS Please refrain from commenting about a possible pregnancy. I’m not pregnant. I just have a nasty stomach bug. It hurts that every time I publically share I’m unwell and nauseous, the first response I get is the are you pregnant bit. It stings because I fucking wish with every fiber of my being that this is true. I just had to put this out there because 1) how will you know it’s insensitive to comment this to someone struggling with infertility without someone just straight out telling you and 2) I don’t have it in me to read those comment. I just can’t handle it right now.